I Wish I Knew

I wish I were melodic

I wish I knew how to string my thoughts together beautifully 

I wish they weren’t so chaotic.

I wish I knew what it’s like to not live in my own mind

To get trapped in my emotions

Feeling away the time

I wish I were methodical and practiced

But I find myself glued to my mattress

I wish I knew what I did with my ambition 

I find myself lost without ammunition

I wish I knew who I am

I wish I knew who I could be

I wish I knew then what I know now

I wish I knew where that would take me

I wish I could tell you I have my shit together

That twenty two is nothing new 

That it’s all sunny weather

I wish I knew that I had the time to tell you

Could you tell me who I am outside my little rhyme?

Could you tell me what you think of me so it can quiet up my mind?

Could you tell me what the way looks like so I don’t waste my time?

Could you tell me that it’s not so bad on the other side?

Could you tell me to un-hold my breath and breathe that healing sigh?

Could you tell me that you have the same fears as mine?

Could you tell me if it’s not going to be fine?

Could you tell me now and hush a worried mind?

I wish I knew

I wish I knew

I wish I knew